fishpatrol: (FOAMING~~)
...except I'd totally intended to write this post last month. Better late than never?

Things That Happened in 2013 That I Remember (I've realized that if I don't write things down, I won't remember them. Sorry to everyone who's had to have repeated conversations with me because my brain is a sieve. ^___^;;)

not really a year in review )


*(continued from the September point)--This is significant for me because while I've probably always been plagued with some level of depression, I haven't had the...courage(?) to seek professional help and then stick with it (I sort of tried twice in the past, but quit both times -- once with SSRIs and once after the initial consultation). Now, three months later, I don't really feel any improvement in my emotional state or in my cognitive state; I do feel more aware of my...situation(?) and that there's obviously something wrong, something impeding my day-to-day functioning. Also, at some point between September and November (I don't remember the exact date and I don't care to look it up), I had my first full-blown panic attack. A week later, I had my second one. I've had minor anxiety attacks in the past (especially in 2012), but nothing full-blown like these, and it was really scary (tbh, I'm kind of shaking and crying now, just remembering what it was like).

It seems so obvious to me now that there is Something Wrong. It's like a shadow, dogging my every step; some days it's small and not so very noticeable (but still there), some days it stretches and it's so much bigger than I am. I wonder if the reason I don't feel that therapy is helping much is because I've only really talked about the context that has highlighted this..."shadow", the context that makes the "shadow" grow. But maybe what I need is to figure out the root of the shadow? Or to at least address some underlying causes that make my chest seize up every time I even let the thoughts reach the surface of my consciousness? There are some issues that I think I need to talk to my psychologist about, but I panic at the thought of even explaining them, much less discussing them.

It's taken me a long time to consciously recognize and accept that there is a problem and that I need to tackle it and not let it continue to fester. It boiled down to the belief that I couldn't possibly be depressed because there wasn't anything horribly wrong in my life (I blame the fact that I never took the abnormal psychology course back in undergrad; I didn't immediately pick up on the fact that depression isn't necessarily the result of anything in your external environment; but rather, it's a combination of your internal state plus the environment which holds all sorts of potentially nasty landmines/triggers. Duh.). I was kind of struggling with this whole idea of "are my feelings valid or not" when I came across a Tumblr post (OF ALL THINGS. A TUMBLR POST.) that said something along the lines of, "You would never tell someone that they can't possibly be happy when there's always someone else out there who's richer or more successful (etc) than them. So why would you tell yourself that you can't possibly be sad when there's always someone else out there who's poorer or less successful (etc) than you?" And that is how I got a wake-up call from Tumblr.

Both the depression and anxiety have worsened in the past few years, and I can easily think of situations in the near future that can trigger attacks. On the days when the "shadow" is small, I can encourage myself to do things that will help me cope -- and maybe even take some preventative measures. As far as preventative measures go, I'm going to try to learn (and regularly practice) mindfulness meditation. My psychologist talked about a few CBT techniques for coping, but I feel that I can only engage in them when I have a certain amount of mental resources available, and this isn't always going to be the case, especially when things get bad. What I want to encourage myself to do is to use this platform to do some sort of writing exercise because writing out my thoughts often helps 1) clarify them and 2) provide a slightly different perspective.


If (WHEN) I do post such entries, I'll always post under a spoiler-tag. Most of me wants to bury and hide these entries under f-lock and filters, but part of me wants to post publicly. Some ridiculously large number of people are afflicted with depression -- but I can't even bring myself to tell anyone I know in real life about my situation (it sounds so wrong to me when I even think the statement "I am depressed"). Maybe posting publicly in a semi-anonymous space will habituate me to the idea that, hey, what I'm experiencing is real and valid; I don't have to hide it.
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(Wee!Jensen hugging Mooseling!Jared, brainchild[ren?] of [livejournal.com profile] applegeuse :>)

I spent all morning reading Yuletide fics and nomming on bits of turkey. Now my choice is to either take a nap or to make like Rodney McKay and rip someone's article to shreds (metaphorically). I've been avoiding posting on LJ for the past while because actively refraining from posting makes me feel less like a procrastinator...or something. I refresh my LJ flist and my Twitter feed every ten minutes, though, so. X3;;;

This is the first Christmas in the past three years that we didn't go down south somewhere, but that's probably a good thing because I had 150 exams to grade (I'm...60% done? or 70%, maybe? NO MORE TA-ing NEXT SEMESTER), 1 paper to write (umm...I'll get to this soon? Or beg for an extension ;;;), 1 paper to review (most professors find reviewing to be a burden, but as a lowly student, it is an ~honour. However, it means that I need to actually work on it), and lots of studies to work on (I don't even know anymore... /o\). I think school is making me lose weight again. \o\ I should do what my younger cousin did and go marry a fisherman so that I can play with dogs and lobsters and go boating instead of write papers.

I watched In Bruges with my parents last night. Nothing made sense in that movie! \o\ It just made me want to say the f-word a lot, afterwards. Tonight, we're going to watch something more brainless and action-y -- Red. Either that or Midnight in Paris, but shit blowing up sounds more fun.

I'm going to NYC for a few days with [livejournal.com profile] lilie_charlotte next week -- we have no idea what the heck we're going to do while we're there. We'll probably plan tomorrow night. Or at the airport the next day. :>;;; (such a contrast from our UK trip, where we would message back-and-forth on Facebook, with links to hotels/tours/passes, for 4-5 hours per day, weeks before our trip -- well, planning was a heck a lot more fun than studying for comps. XD)

In a week (+ a bit), I'm going to turn old. :( I keep forgetting this fact. I WANT TO STAY YOUNG FOREVERRRR \o\ At what point would one be considered to be in one's "mid-twenties"? Concerned minds wish to know.
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(Wee!Jensen hugging Mooseling!Jared, brainchild[ren?] of [livejournal.com profile] applegeuse :>)

I spent all morning reading Yuletide fics and nomming on bits of turkey. Now my choice is to either take a nap or to make like Rodney McKay rip someone's article to shreds (metaphorically). I've been avoiding posting on LJ for the past while because actively refraining from posting makes me feel less like a procrastinator...or something. I refresh my LJ flist and my Twitter feed every ten minutes, though, so. X3;;;

This is the first Christmas in the past three years that we didn't go down south somewhere, but that's probably a good thing because I had 150 exams to grade (I'm...60% done? or 70%, maybe? NO MORE TA-ing NEXT SEMESTER), 1 paper to write (umm...I'll get to this soon? Or beg for an extension ;;;), 1 paper to review (most professors find reviewing to be a burden, but as a lowly student, it is an ~honour. However, it means that I need to actually work on it), and lots of studies to work on (I don't even know anymore... /o\). I think school is making me lose weight again. \o\ I should do what my younger cousin did and go marry a fisherman so that I can play with dogs and lobsters and go boating instead of write papers.

I watched In Bruges with my parents last night. Nothing made sense in that movie! \o\ It just made me want to say the f-word a lot, afterwards. Tonight, we're going to watch something more brainless and action-y -- Red. Either that or Midnight in Paris, but shit blowing up sounds more fun.

I'm going to NYC for a few days with [livejournal.com profile] lilie_charlotte next week -- we have no idea what the heck we're going to do while we're there. We'll probably plan tomorrow night. Or at the airport the next day. :>;;; (such a contrast from our UK trip, where we would message back-and-forth on Facebook, with links to hotels/tours/passes, for 4-5 hours per day, weeks before our trip -- well, planning was a heck a lot more fun than studying for comps. XD)

In a week (+ a bit), I'm going to turn old. :( I keep forgetting this fact. I WANT TO STAY YOUNG FOREVERRRR \o\ At what point would one be considered to be in one's "mid-twenties"? Concerned minds wish to know.
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Waiting for the sleeping pill to kick in so I can enjoy being dead to the world :> conference doesn't officially start until Friday, but there's a doctoral thIngamajig tomorrow and group dinners earlier tonight. I hate being in situations where I have to socialize with tons of strangers, especially when I feel that their opinion matters to me. I think I've been handling myself well enough so far. Tomorrow's events start at 7:15am, so let's see if I can last until Saturday night without collapsing from exhaustion (also hope my ego won't be demolished at the end of this conference! ;;;;;).

My temporal lobe threatened to explode on the plane today. My inner ear is still a bit sore. D:


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Waiting for the sleeping pill to kick in so I can enjoy being dead to the world :> conference doesn't officially start until Friday, but there's a doctoral thIngamajig tomorrow and group dinners earlier tonight. I hate being in situations where I have to socialize with tons of strangers, especially when I feel that their opinion matters to me. I think I've been handling myself well enough so far. Tomorrow's events start at 7:15am, so let's see if I can last until Saturday night without collapsing from exhaustion (also hope my ego won't be demolished at the end of this conference! ;;;;;).

My temporal lobe threatened to explode on the plane today. My inner ear is still a bit sore. D:


Posted via m.livejournal.com.

fishpatrol: (gnaw gnaw gnaw)
1. I chipped the corner of my front tooth! On what, I have no idea! D: One second I'm licking at my front tooth (idk) and I'm thinking there's something stuck on it, and the next second I'm like, OMG PART OF MY TOOTH IS MISSING. I have nightmares about my teeth becoming loose and falling out. :(

2. My mom, trying to compliment me on my life choices or something, idk:

MOM: You're like a bomb that's still heading up in its trajectory while other people are heading down [makes hand gestures]
ME: ...did you just compare me to an Angry Bird?
MOM: XDDD

3. I thought my brain was completely fried because I just could not edit the damned paper (like, not a single thing; not even re-arrange the paragraphs), but it turns out I just reeeally don't want to work on that particular paper. I made a teeny bit head-way on a separate project and jotted down a few ideas and a few papers that I need to look up tomorrow (which, yay, every bit counts...or something). But...that still doesn't resolve the issue with the other paper. It ain't gonna edit itself and I have a meeting about it on Wednesday, ugh.

4. I refuse to leave this post on a depressing note, so, here, have a meme that's been making the rounds:

Leave me a comment with the corresponding number(s) and I'll tell you:

1 Five ways to my heart.
2 Something I feel strongly about.
3 A book I love.
4 Things I want to say to an ex.
5 Five pet peeves.
6 What I ate today.
7-26 under the cut )

Be forewarned that my answers for some of these might be on the ridiculous side, especially if I'm coming up with the answer on the spot. ;;;
fishpatrol: (gnaw gnaw gnaw)
1. I chipped the corner of my front tooth! On what, I have no idea! D: One second I'm licking at my front tooth (idk) and I'm thinking there's something stuck on it, and the next second I'm like, OMG PART OF MY TOOTH IS MISSING. I have nightmares about my teeth becoming loose and falling out. :(

2. My mom, trying to compliment me on my life choices or something, idk:

MOM: You're like a bomb that's still heading up in its trajectory while other people are heading down [makes hand gestures]
ME: ...did you just compare me to an Angry Bird?
MOM: XDDD

3. I thought my brain was completely fried because I just could not edit the damned paper (like, not a single thing; not even re-arrange the paragraphs), but it turns out I just reeeally don't want to work on that particular paper. I made a teeny bit head-way on a separate project and jotted down a few ideas and a few papers that I need to look up tomorrow (which, yay, every bit counts...or something). But...that still doesn't resolve the issue with the other paper. It ain't gonna edit itself and I have a meeting about it on Wednesday, ugh.

4. I refuse to leave this post on a depressing note, so, here, have a meme that's been making the rounds:

Leave me a comment with the corresponding number(s) and I'll tell you:

1 Five ways to my heart.
2 Something I feel strongly about.
3 A book I love.
4 Things I want to say to an ex.
5 Five pet peeves.
6 What I ate today.
7-26 under the cut )

Be forewarned that my answers for some of these might be on the ridiculous side, especially if I'm coming up with the answer on the spot. ;;;
fishpatrol: (FOAMING~~)
I finished the first day of my exam today, whoohoo! It bothers me that I got the last question wrong for sure (no, self, lambda can't be larger than one when it's a proportion, omgfuuuuuuu ;;;; I don't know what the correct answer is, but I know for certain that I'm 100% wrong X3;;;;), but whatever, it's done and over with! I didn't think I could sit still for more than six hours (I ended up taking around seven hours), but I managed to override my urge to just put my head down and take a nap in the middle of the exam. Tomorrow is going to be just as terrifying, but at least it'll be a shorter day! And then, one more day on Thursday, and assuming I pass all of the parts (omg, do not want to take quant again or an econ course D:) this should be my last exam ever! \o/

My collaborators are all like, can you do this and this? Oh, right, you have comps -- do them after comps, okay? And I'm all like, D: D: I want a break D: I still need to email a couple of people and tell them that I'm going to Europe and won't have internet access. X3

Also: Thanks to whomever sent me the anonymous gift! The notification was the first email I read this morning and it definitely made me feel much better before my exam -- so, awesome timing, whomever you are ♥♥!

Also-also: This Castiel-meets-the-Ghostfacers video is hilarious -- even if you're not fan of either Castiel or the Ghostfacers, the video is worth a watch. ;)

Also-also-also: I'm listening to the new Super Junior album and it's delightful ♥ And the album cover? Is lolarious~ (oh, Siwon~~~ XDD)
fishpatrol: (FOAMING~~)
I finished the first day of my exam today, whoohoo! It bothers me that I got the last question wrong for sure (no, self, lambda can't be larger than one when it's a proportion, omgfuuuuuuu ;;;; I don't know what the correct answer is, but I know for certain that I'm 100% wrong X3;;;;), but whatever, it's done and over with! I didn't think I could sit still for more than six hours (I ended up taking around seven hours), but I managed to override my urge to just put my head down and take a nap in the middle of the exam. Tomorrow is going to be just as terrifying, but at least it'll be a shorter day! And then, one more day on Thursday, and assuming I pass all of the parts (omg, do not want to take quant again or an econ course D:) this should be my last exam ever! \o/

My collaborators are all like, can you do this and this? Oh, right, you have comps -- do them after comps, okay? And I'm all like, D: D: I want a break D: I still need to email a couple of people and tell them that I'm going to Europe and won't have internet access. X3

Also: Thanks to whomever sent me the anonymous gift! The notification was the first email I read this morning and it definitely made me feel much better before my exam -- so, awesome timing, whomever you are ♥♥!

Also-also: This Castiel-meets-the-Ghostfacers video is hilarious -- even if you're not fan of either Castiel or the Ghostfacers, the video is worth a watch. ;)

Also-also-also: I'm listening to the new Super Junior album and it's delightful ♥ And the album cover? Is lolarious~ (oh, Siwon~~~ XDD)
fishpatrol: (ded in the hed)
1. I keep writing up LJ entries in my head, but I guess they are of very little use if I don't post them. ;;; [livejournal.com profile] postingwhore kindly nudged me to remind me that I haven't posted in over three weeks. I want to post more regularly, but I keep getting distracted by other things! Also, school is still kicking my ass, big time. If I posted more regularly, I suspect my entries would be filled with things like: "And today, I tried reading fifty million articles and write up a paper in one go and I realized that it was a Very Bad Idea."

I did my Presentation of Doom back in April and I thought that was going to be the major hurdle. It was a pretty massive hurdle, but now I'm inundated with all the work I've neglected and I have supervisors and collaborators emailing me with stuff like, "Where is the data/write-up/analysis/study design" and I'm all, "D: D: D: *hides and procrastinates more*" My way of dealing with stress is to read fic and let me tell you, that is a terrible coping method.

2. MEME!

1) Comment to this and (if you want) I will give you 3 (fictional) people.
2) Post this meme to your LJ with your answers.
3) Provide pictures/text descriptions and the names of the 3 people.
4) Label whom you would shag, marry and (push off a) cliff.


[livejournal.com profile] postingwhore gave me: Dean Winchester (SPN), John Sheppard (SGA), Atobe Keigo (PoT)

These were tough choices! But it did give me an excuse to go through my SPN/SGA/PoT picture folders and ogle at all the pretty. I also realized that I have very few pictures of Dean (if Jensen were on this list instead of Dean, I suspect my answers to this meme may be very different...).

...and onwards! )

3. The keynote speaker at last week's conference talked about some really interesting research about the psychology of scarcity and how people can be "money poor" or "time poor". ... )

4. The topic of marriage comes up more frequently now that I'm often with people who are several years older than me. One of the fifth year students expressed her surprise when I told her than I'm not particularly invested in the idea of marriage for myself. ... )

5. So, despite my antisocial mannerisms, I had a lovely, brisk walk with [livejournal.com profile] cantarina1 around the neighbourhood. That was a particularly efficient and healthy way of "hanging out" (as opposed to huddling together in front of a computer screen, as we often do ;)). If we make this a regular thing, perhaps I'll be able to shed a layer of padding around my middle that I've picked up during my semester of thinking-about-going-to-the-gym-but-never-actually-going.

6. Now for something completely different: so, the other day, I came across a discussion about the importance of technical quality in stories posted online. Some of the people involved in this discussion were appalled that some readers would completely skip over stories that had grammatical mistakes and other errors. "The authors are writing these stories for fun!" they said. "They're even posting the stories for free, you entitled readers!"

As for myself, I have three general rules that I use to decide whether or not I will read any particular story (I would've sworn I'd written about this at some point in time, but maybe it's one of those in-my-mind!entries that I'd never gotten around to writing out and posting). I developed these three rules-of-thumb back in high school, during my Harry Potter days, when I realized that there was more fic being posted than I had time to read.

cut for length. i haz ~opinions )

Tell me about what makes you click the "back" button!

7. I should post more often so that I don't end up spending 40 minutes trying to write up an LJ post.

8. Is Firefox 4 actually faster or does it just look Chrome-like, with no actual redeeming qualities?

eta: Adding more Lj-cuts because long entry is long. ;;;; [/spamming your flists]
fishpatrol: (ded in the hed)
1. I keep writing up LJ entries in my head, but I guess they are of very little use if I don't post them. ;;; [livejournal.com profile] postingwhore kindly nudged me to remind me that I haven't posted in over three weeks. I want to post more regularly, but I keep getting distracted by other things! Also, school is still kicking my ass, big time. If I posted more regularly, I suspect my entries would be filled with things like: "And today, I tried reading fifty million articles and write up a paper in one go and I realized that it was a Very Bad Idea."

I did my Presentation of Doom back in April and I thought that was going to be the major hurdle. It was a pretty massive hurdle, but now I'm inundated with all the work I've neglected and I have supervisors and collaborators emailing me with stuff like, "Where is the data/write-up/analysis/study design" and I'm all, "D: D: D: *hides and procrastinates more*" My way of dealing with stress is to read fic and let me tell you, that is a terrible coping method.

2. MEME!

1) Comment to this and (if you want) I will give you 3 (fictional) people.
2) Post this meme to your LJ with your answers.
3) Provide pictures/text descriptions and the names of the 3 people.
4) Label whom you would shag, marry and (push off a) cliff.


[livejournal.com profile] postingwhore gave me: Dean Winchester (SPN), John Sheppard (SGA), Atobe Keigo (PoT)

These were tough choices! But it did give me an excuse to go through my SPN/SGA/PoT picture folders and ogle at all the pretty. I also realized that I have very few pictures of Dean (if Jensen were on this list instead of Dean, I suspect my answers to this meme may be very different...).

...and onwards! )

3. The keynote speaker at last week's conference talked about some really interesting research about the psychology of scarcity and how people can be "money poor" or "time poor". ... )

4. The topic of marriage comes up more frequently now that I'm often with people who are several years older than me. One of the fifth year students expressed her surprise when I told her than I'm not particularly invested in the idea of marriage for myself. ... )

5. So, despite my antisocial mannerisms, I had a lovely, brisk walk with [livejournal.com profile] cantarina1 around the neighbourhood. That was a particularly efficient and healthy way of "hanging out" (as opposed to huddling together in front of a computer screen, as we often do ;)). If we make this a regular thing, perhaps I'll be able to shed a layer of padding around my middle that I've picked up during my semester of thinking-about-going-to-the-gym-but-never-actually-going.

6. Now for something completely different: so, the other day, I came across a discussion about the importance of technical quality in stories posted online. Some of the people involved in this discussion were appalled that some readers would completely skip over stories that had grammatical mistakes and other errors. "The authors are writing these stories for fun!" they said. "They're even posting the stories for free, you entitled readers!"

As for myself, I have three general rules that I use to decide whether or not I will read any particular story (I would've sworn I'd written about this at some point in time, but maybe it's one of those in-my-mind!entries that I'd never gotten around to writing out and posting). I developed these three rules-of-thumb back in high school, during my Harry Potter days, when I realized that there was more fic being posted than I had time to read.

cut for length. i haz ~opinions )

Tell me about what makes you click the "back" button!

7. I should post more often so that I don't end up spending 40 minutes trying to write up an LJ post.

8. Is Firefox 4 actually faster or does it just look Chrome-like, with no actual redeeming qualities?

eta: Adding more Lj-cuts because long entry is long. ;;;; [/spamming your flists]
fishpatrol: (FOAMING~~)
It's been over two months since I last posted! I don't think I've ever, in the last eight years, gone so long without posting! \o\~~~ Obviously, school is eating me alive. I have a mouth ulcer -- apparently it's due to stress. :| :| Classes are done now; I still have a major presentation on Monday (every time I think about it, my stomach clenches D: Deep breaths, self, deep breaths) and a bijillion research projects to catch up on because I've been neglecting a least three of them for weeks now.

I've been lurking like lurky McLurker -- every time I thought about posting, I'd feel a bit guilty since I haven't been commenting much and I'd also feel guilty about LJ-ing rather than working (but that didn't stop me from F5-ing my flist constantly...! ;;;;)

I resisted getting a DW account for ages, but I finally caved after all the DDoS attacks and I couldn't get LJBook to work and back up my journal for me. So, I'm fishpatrol over there as well. I haven't had a chance to poke around the site much -- the subscription vs. giving access vs. whatever confuses me greatly, so I haven't added anyone yet. Feel free to add me over there (and let me know if I'm supposed to subscribe to you? give you access? do an interpretive dance and sing a song??). I haven't set up cross-posting, but I may join communities or something over there so that I'll at least have some form of a flist to refresh if Frank starts nibbling on the wires again.
fishpatrol: (FOAMING~~)
It's been over two months since I last posted! I don't think I've ever, in the last eight years, gone so long without posting! \o\~~~ Obviously, school is eating me alive. I have a mouth ulcer -- apparently it's due to stress. :| :| Classes are done now; I still have a major presentation on Monday (every time I think about it, my stomach clenches D: Deep breaths, self, deep breaths) and a bijillion research projects to catch up on because I've been neglecting a least three of them for weeks now.

I've been lurking like lurky McLurker -- every time I thought about posting, I'd feel a bit guilty since I haven't been commenting much and I'd also feel guilty about LJ-ing rather than working (but that didn't stop me from F5-ing my flist constantly...! ;;;;)

I resisted getting a DW account for ages, but I finally caved after all the DDoS attacks and I couldn't get LJBook to work and back up my journal for me. So, I'm fishpatrol over there as well. I haven't had a chance to poke around the site much -- the subscription vs. giving access vs. whatever confuses me greatly, so I haven't added anyone yet. Feel free to add me over there (and let me know if I'm supposed to subscribe to you? give you access? do an interpretive dance and sing a song??). I haven't set up cross-posting, but I may join communities or something over there so that I'll at least have some form of a flist to refresh if Frank starts nibbling on the wires again.
fishpatrol: (ded in the hed)
Ugh, you guys, it is such a bad idea to not start on a research paper (on an area that I'm barely familiar with) until the day it's due. *facepalms so hard*

Entertain me as I slowly climb my way to 3000+ words? :]

Meme snagged from [livejournal.com profile] lemniciate:

Please post anonymously and give three hints about yourself. I will try to guess who you are.

(I forget how to turn off IP logging -- uh, you'll just have to take my word for it that I'm not checking IP? :D;;;)

eta: 50% done (I'm not writing the methodology until S comes home and walks me through a methods section of a neuroscience paper :|:|) Dinner + TV time :DDD
fishpatrol: (ded in the hed)
Ugh, you guys, it is such a bad idea to not start on a research paper (on an area that I'm barely familiar with) until the day it's due. *facepalms so hard*

Entertain me as I slowly climb my way to 3000+ words? :]

Meme snagged from [livejournal.com profile] lemniciate:

Please post anonymously and give three hints about yourself. I will try to guess who you are.

(I forget how to turn off IP logging -- uh, you'll just have to take my word for it that I'm not checking IP? :D;;;)

eta: 50% done (I'm not writing the methodology until S comes home and walks me through a methods section of a neuroscience paper :|:|) Dinner + TV time :DDD
fishpatrol: (FOAMING~~)
Too much RL lately, ugh. I probably won't be around much until I finish: 1. grading this batch of midterms (as;dlkfjs;d), 2. reading a bajillion articles, 3. dealing my projects, and 4. writing my grant proposal. \o\

I did a teeny flist trim (the usual reasons: our interests diverged, we've never talked, etc.). Anyone who wants to remove me from their flist, please feel free to do so (no hard feelings, I promise!).

*goes back to grading*
fishpatrol: (FOAMING~~)
Too much RL lately, ugh. I probably won't be around much until I finish: 1. grading this batch of midterms (as;dlkfjs;d), 2. reading a bajillion articles, 3. dealing my projects, and 4. writing my grant proposal. \o\

I did a teeny flist trim (the usual reasons: our interests diverged, we've never talked, etc.). Anyone who wants to remove me from their flist, please feel free to do so (no hard feelings, I promise!).

*goes back to grading*
fishpatrol: (ded in the hed)
1. I see that LJ still hasn't addressed the reposting to Facebook/Twitter issue. I won't repost if you won't.

2. There's this big apartment building across from our residence building, and back in August, when I looked out our living room window, I could see what looked like a neon open sign on an upper floor balcony. I said jokingly to my suitemate S., "I'll bet there's a hooker living there and that's the 'Open for Business' sign, so that customers know when to go up." (This is not a far-fetched theory! Rumours say that there are many prostitutes living in that building.) Today, S. looked out the window and noted that we haven't seen the lit-up sign for a while now. I immediately thought to myself, It's because hooker!Jensen has given up the trade since he's met student!Jared who is the love of his life and now they are living happily ever after and the neon open sign will never light up again! This may be an indication to cut back on the J2 AUs. ;;;;

3. SPN Season 6 Trailer, eee♥
very brief reaction, cut for the super-spoiler-phobes )
I AM EXCITE.

3.5 Inception has finally loosened its claws on me, so now I can divert some attention back to SPN (but I've been in more of a J2 mood lately, idk). I'm not sure if the trailer was for the first two (three?) episodes, or just the first episode; either way, I do hope next week's episode won't disappoint. *crosses fingers*

4. I started yoga classes today. I have a feeling I'm going to be hurting in strange places tomorrow. X3

5. School officially started yesterday -- not that it ever really ended for me (eta: ahaha, this comic says it all. fml /o\), but two classes (and a half? and the weekly seminars), two TA sessions, and two research projects means a lot less slacking on my part. nrrrghhhh

6. Will play comment-catch-up tomorrow. Time to sneak in a teeny bit of fic reading (yes, I suck at being productive, shut up) and then go to bed. I almost fell asleep during the final relaxation period during yoga (I don't know why I was so sleepy! I even took a nap in my office earlier today. ;;;)
fishpatrol: (ded in the hed)
1. I see that LJ still hasn't addressed the reposting to Facebook/Twitter issue. I won't repost if you won't.

2. There's this big apartment building across from our residence building, and back in August, when I looked out our living room window, I could see what looked like a neon open sign on an upper floor balcony. I said jokingly to my suitemate S., "I'll bet there's a hooker living there and that's the 'Open for Business' sign, so that customers know when to go up." (This is not a far-fetched theory! Rumours say that there are many prostitutes living in that building.) Today, S. looked out the window and noted that we haven't seen the lit-up sign for a while now. I immediately thought to myself, It's because hooker!Jensen has given up the trade since he's met student!Jared who is the love of his life and now they are living happily ever after and the neon open sign will never light up again! This may be an indication to cut back on the J2 AUs. ;;;;

3. SPN Season 6 Trailer, eee♥
very brief reaction, cut for the super-spoiler-phobes )
I AM EXCITE.

3.5 Inception has finally loosened its claws on me, so now I can divert some attention back to SPN (but I've been in more of a J2 mood lately, idk). I'm not sure if the trailer was for the first two (three?) episodes, or just the first episode; either way, I do hope next week's episode won't disappoint. *crosses fingers*

4. I started yoga classes today. I have a feeling I'm going to be hurting in strange places tomorrow. X3

5. School officially started yesterday -- not that it ever really ended for me (eta: ahaha, this comic says it all. fml /o\), but two classes (and a half? and the weekly seminars), two TA sessions, and two research projects means a lot less slacking on my part. nrrrghhhh

6. Will play comment-catch-up tomorrow. Time to sneak in a teeny bit of fic reading (yes, I suck at being productive, shut up) and then go to bed. I almost fell asleep during the final relaxation period during yoga (I don't know why I was so sleepy! I even took a nap in my office earlier today. ;;;)
fishpatrol: (how *you* doin')
I've convinced [livejournal.com profile] lilie_charlotte to watch Inception with me in IMAX next week, which will be her first viewing and my third. Oh man, I'm going to end up being one of those people who watch Inception a bajillion times before the DVD even comes out. /o\

Also, I said to [livejournal.com profile] cantarina1 earlier, "when i start drawing fanart [for Inception], then i'll know i'm doomed."

I guess I'm doomed, then! \o\ )

I don't want to leave the SPN/J2 fandom! But my attention span can only sustain one fandom at a time! Dilemma! \o\ How do you multifandomers do it?

--

Also, I think it's time for a semi-hiatus. That Damned Project (Proposal) is due at the end of August and I get a panicky fit every time someone reminds me of the date. I've researched for and written up a proposal within two weeks last semester, so I should be able to do this without going completely nuts, especially since I have most of the research done already. I might post random tablet!doodles as a stress-relief, and I'll definitely skim the flist (because I can't bring myself to stay off LJ), but I probably won't be commenting much. I'm also going to try to cut down the fic-reading, but we'll see how that goes. ;;;

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