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...except I'd totally intended to write this post last month. Better late than never?

Things That Happened in 2013 That I Remember (I've realized that if I don't write things down, I won't remember them. Sorry to everyone who's had to have repeated conversations with me because my brain is a sieve. ^___^;;)

not really a year in review )


*(continued from the September point)--This is significant for me because while I've probably always been plagued with some level of depression, I haven't had the...courage(?) to seek professional help and then stick with it (I sort of tried twice in the past, but quit both times -- once with SSRIs and once after the initial consultation). Now, three months later, I don't really feel any improvement in my emotional state or in my cognitive state; I do feel more aware of my...situation(?) and that there's obviously something wrong, something impeding my day-to-day functioning. Also, at some point between September and November (I don't remember the exact date and I don't care to look it up), I had my first full-blown panic attack. A week later, I had my second one. I've had minor anxiety attacks in the past (especially in 2012), but nothing full-blown like these, and it was really scary (tbh, I'm kind of shaking and crying now, just remembering what it was like).

It seems so obvious to me now that there is Something Wrong. It's like a shadow, dogging my every step; some days it's small and not so very noticeable (but still there), some days it stretches and it's so much bigger than I am. I wonder if the reason I don't feel that therapy is helping much is because I've only really talked about the context that has highlighted this..."shadow", the context that makes the "shadow" grow. But maybe what I need is to figure out the root of the shadow? Or to at least address some underlying causes that make my chest seize up every time I even let the thoughts reach the surface of my consciousness? There are some issues that I think I need to talk to my psychologist about, but I panic at the thought of even explaining them, much less discussing them.

It's taken me a long time to consciously recognize and accept that there is a problem and that I need to tackle it and not let it continue to fester. It boiled down to the belief that I couldn't possibly be depressed because there wasn't anything horribly wrong in my life (I blame the fact that I never took the abnormal psychology course back in undergrad; I didn't immediately pick up on the fact that depression isn't necessarily the result of anything in your external environment; but rather, it's a combination of your internal state plus the environment which holds all sorts of potentially nasty landmines/triggers. Duh.). I was kind of struggling with this whole idea of "are my feelings valid or not" when I came across a Tumblr post (OF ALL THINGS. A TUMBLR POST.) that said something along the lines of, "You would never tell someone that they can't possibly be happy when there's always someone else out there who's richer or more successful (etc) than them. So why would you tell yourself that you can't possibly be sad when there's always someone else out there who's poorer or less successful (etc) than you?" And that is how I got a wake-up call from Tumblr.

Both the depression and anxiety have worsened in the past few years, and I can easily think of situations in the near future that can trigger attacks. On the days when the "shadow" is small, I can encourage myself to do things that will help me cope -- and maybe even take some preventative measures. As far as preventative measures go, I'm going to try to learn (and regularly practice) mindfulness meditation. My psychologist talked about a few CBT techniques for coping, but I feel that I can only engage in them when I have a certain amount of mental resources available, and this isn't always going to be the case, especially when things get bad. What I want to encourage myself to do is to use this platform to do some sort of writing exercise because writing out my thoughts often helps 1) clarify them and 2) provide a slightly different perspective.


If (WHEN) I do post such entries, I'll always post under a spoiler-tag. Most of me wants to bury and hide these entries under f-lock and filters, but part of me wants to post publicly. Some ridiculously large number of people are afflicted with depression -- but I can't even bring myself to tell anyone I know in real life about my situation (it sounds so wrong to me when I even think the statement "I am depressed"). Maybe posting publicly in a semi-anonymous space will habituate me to the idea that, hey, what I'm experiencing is real and valid; I don't have to hide it.
fishpatrol: (in ur internets...)
I will endeavor to post on LJ more frequently (and quit whining about how I can't keep up with Twitter/Tumblr and how I miss the ~old ~days of LJ. I make no promises on this, though).

Happy new year! Hope 2014 beats 2013!

Holy crackers, it's been almost a whole year since I last posted! /o\ I still read my flist everyday, though, and comment occasionally!
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(Wee!Jensen hugging Mooseling!Jared, brainchild[ren?] of [livejournal.com profile] applegeuse :>)

I spent all morning reading Yuletide fics and nomming on bits of turkey. Now my choice is to either take a nap or to make like Rodney McKay and rip someone's article to shreds (metaphorically). I've been avoiding posting on LJ for the past while because actively refraining from posting makes me feel less like a procrastinator...or something. I refresh my LJ flist and my Twitter feed every ten minutes, though, so. X3;;;

This is the first Christmas in the past three years that we didn't go down south somewhere, but that's probably a good thing because I had 150 exams to grade (I'm...60% done? or 70%, maybe? NO MORE TA-ing NEXT SEMESTER), 1 paper to write (umm...I'll get to this soon? Or beg for an extension ;;;), 1 paper to review (most professors find reviewing to be a burden, but as a lowly student, it is an ~honour. However, it means that I need to actually work on it), and lots of studies to work on (I don't even know anymore... /o\). I think school is making me lose weight again. \o\ I should do what my younger cousin did and go marry a fisherman so that I can play with dogs and lobsters and go boating instead of write papers.

I watched In Bruges with my parents last night. Nothing made sense in that movie! \o\ It just made me want to say the f-word a lot, afterwards. Tonight, we're going to watch something more brainless and action-y -- Red. Either that or Midnight in Paris, but shit blowing up sounds more fun.

I'm going to NYC for a few days with [livejournal.com profile] lilie_charlotte next week -- we have no idea what the heck we're going to do while we're there. We'll probably plan tomorrow night. Or at the airport the next day. :>;;; (such a contrast from our UK trip, where we would message back-and-forth on Facebook, with links to hotels/tours/passes, for 4-5 hours per day, weeks before our trip -- well, planning was a heck a lot more fun than studying for comps. XD)

In a week (+ a bit), I'm going to turn old. :( I keep forgetting this fact. I WANT TO STAY YOUNG FOREVERRRR \o\ At what point would one be considered to be in one's "mid-twenties"? Concerned minds wish to know.
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(Wee!Jensen hugging Mooseling!Jared, brainchild[ren?] of [livejournal.com profile] applegeuse :>)

I spent all morning reading Yuletide fics and nomming on bits of turkey. Now my choice is to either take a nap or to make like Rodney McKay rip someone's article to shreds (metaphorically). I've been avoiding posting on LJ for the past while because actively refraining from posting makes me feel less like a procrastinator...or something. I refresh my LJ flist and my Twitter feed every ten minutes, though, so. X3;;;

This is the first Christmas in the past three years that we didn't go down south somewhere, but that's probably a good thing because I had 150 exams to grade (I'm...60% done? or 70%, maybe? NO MORE TA-ing NEXT SEMESTER), 1 paper to write (umm...I'll get to this soon? Or beg for an extension ;;;), 1 paper to review (most professors find reviewing to be a burden, but as a lowly student, it is an ~honour. However, it means that I need to actually work on it), and lots of studies to work on (I don't even know anymore... /o\). I think school is making me lose weight again. \o\ I should do what my younger cousin did and go marry a fisherman so that I can play with dogs and lobsters and go boating instead of write papers.

I watched In Bruges with my parents last night. Nothing made sense in that movie! \o\ It just made me want to say the f-word a lot, afterwards. Tonight, we're going to watch something more brainless and action-y -- Red. Either that or Midnight in Paris, but shit blowing up sounds more fun.

I'm going to NYC for a few days with [livejournal.com profile] lilie_charlotte next week -- we have no idea what the heck we're going to do while we're there. We'll probably plan tomorrow night. Or at the airport the next day. :>;;; (such a contrast from our UK trip, where we would message back-and-forth on Facebook, with links to hotels/tours/passes, for 4-5 hours per day, weeks before our trip -- well, planning was a heck a lot more fun than studying for comps. XD)

In a week (+ a bit), I'm going to turn old. :( I keep forgetting this fact. I WANT TO STAY YOUNG FOREVERRRR \o\ At what point would one be considered to be in one's "mid-twenties"? Concerned minds wish to know.
fishpatrol: (FOAMING~~)
I finished the first day of my exam today, whoohoo! It bothers me that I got the last question wrong for sure (no, self, lambda can't be larger than one when it's a proportion, omgfuuuuuuu ;;;; I don't know what the correct answer is, but I know for certain that I'm 100% wrong X3;;;;), but whatever, it's done and over with! I didn't think I could sit still for more than six hours (I ended up taking around seven hours), but I managed to override my urge to just put my head down and take a nap in the middle of the exam. Tomorrow is going to be just as terrifying, but at least it'll be a shorter day! And then, one more day on Thursday, and assuming I pass all of the parts (omg, do not want to take quant again or an econ course D:) this should be my last exam ever! \o/

My collaborators are all like, can you do this and this? Oh, right, you have comps -- do them after comps, okay? And I'm all like, D: D: I want a break D: I still need to email a couple of people and tell them that I'm going to Europe and won't have internet access. X3

Also: Thanks to whomever sent me the anonymous gift! The notification was the first email I read this morning and it definitely made me feel much better before my exam -- so, awesome timing, whomever you are ♥♥!

Also-also: This Castiel-meets-the-Ghostfacers video is hilarious -- even if you're not fan of either Castiel or the Ghostfacers, the video is worth a watch. ;)

Also-also-also: I'm listening to the new Super Junior album and it's delightful ♥ And the album cover? Is lolarious~ (oh, Siwon~~~ XDD)
fishpatrol: (FOAMING~~)
I finished the first day of my exam today, whoohoo! It bothers me that I got the last question wrong for sure (no, self, lambda can't be larger than one when it's a proportion, omgfuuuuuuu ;;;; I don't know what the correct answer is, but I know for certain that I'm 100% wrong X3;;;;), but whatever, it's done and over with! I didn't think I could sit still for more than six hours (I ended up taking around seven hours), but I managed to override my urge to just put my head down and take a nap in the middle of the exam. Tomorrow is going to be just as terrifying, but at least it'll be a shorter day! And then, one more day on Thursday, and assuming I pass all of the parts (omg, do not want to take quant again or an econ course D:) this should be my last exam ever! \o/

My collaborators are all like, can you do this and this? Oh, right, you have comps -- do them after comps, okay? And I'm all like, D: D: I want a break D: I still need to email a couple of people and tell them that I'm going to Europe and won't have internet access. X3

Also: Thanks to whomever sent me the anonymous gift! The notification was the first email I read this morning and it definitely made me feel much better before my exam -- so, awesome timing, whomever you are ♥♥!

Also-also: This Castiel-meets-the-Ghostfacers video is hilarious -- even if you're not fan of either Castiel or the Ghostfacers, the video is worth a watch. ;)

Also-also-also: I'm listening to the new Super Junior album and it's delightful ♥ And the album cover? Is lolarious~ (oh, Siwon~~~ XDD)
fishpatrol: (ded in the hed)
1. I keep writing up LJ entries in my head, but I guess they are of very little use if I don't post them. ;;; [livejournal.com profile] postingwhore kindly nudged me to remind me that I haven't posted in over three weeks. I want to post more regularly, but I keep getting distracted by other things! Also, school is still kicking my ass, big time. If I posted more regularly, I suspect my entries would be filled with things like: "And today, I tried reading fifty million articles and write up a paper in one go and I realized that it was a Very Bad Idea."

I did my Presentation of Doom back in April and I thought that was going to be the major hurdle. It was a pretty massive hurdle, but now I'm inundated with all the work I've neglected and I have supervisors and collaborators emailing me with stuff like, "Where is the data/write-up/analysis/study design" and I'm all, "D: D: D: *hides and procrastinates more*" My way of dealing with stress is to read fic and let me tell you, that is a terrible coping method.

2. MEME!

1) Comment to this and (if you want) I will give you 3 (fictional) people.
2) Post this meme to your LJ with your answers.
3) Provide pictures/text descriptions and the names of the 3 people.
4) Label whom you would shag, marry and (push off a) cliff.


[livejournal.com profile] postingwhore gave me: Dean Winchester (SPN), John Sheppard (SGA), Atobe Keigo (PoT)

These were tough choices! But it did give me an excuse to go through my SPN/SGA/PoT picture folders and ogle at all the pretty. I also realized that I have very few pictures of Dean (if Jensen were on this list instead of Dean, I suspect my answers to this meme may be very different...).

...and onwards! )

3. The keynote speaker at last week's conference talked about some really interesting research about the psychology of scarcity and how people can be "money poor" or "time poor". ... )

4. The topic of marriage comes up more frequently now that I'm often with people who are several years older than me. One of the fifth year students expressed her surprise when I told her than I'm not particularly invested in the idea of marriage for myself. ... )

5. So, despite my antisocial mannerisms, I had a lovely, brisk walk with [livejournal.com profile] cantarina1 around the neighbourhood. That was a particularly efficient and healthy way of "hanging out" (as opposed to huddling together in front of a computer screen, as we often do ;)). If we make this a regular thing, perhaps I'll be able to shed a layer of padding around my middle that I've picked up during my semester of thinking-about-going-to-the-gym-but-never-actually-going.

6. Now for something completely different: so, the other day, I came across a discussion about the importance of technical quality in stories posted online. Some of the people involved in this discussion were appalled that some readers would completely skip over stories that had grammatical mistakes and other errors. "The authors are writing these stories for fun!" they said. "They're even posting the stories for free, you entitled readers!"

As for myself, I have three general rules that I use to decide whether or not I will read any particular story (I would've sworn I'd written about this at some point in time, but maybe it's one of those in-my-mind!entries that I'd never gotten around to writing out and posting). I developed these three rules-of-thumb back in high school, during my Harry Potter days, when I realized that there was more fic being posted than I had time to read.

cut for length. i haz ~opinions )

Tell me about what makes you click the "back" button!

7. I should post more often so that I don't end up spending 40 minutes trying to write up an LJ post.

8. Is Firefox 4 actually faster or does it just look Chrome-like, with no actual redeeming qualities?

eta: Adding more Lj-cuts because long entry is long. ;;;; [/spamming your flists]
fishpatrol: (ded in the hed)
1. I keep writing up LJ entries in my head, but I guess they are of very little use if I don't post them. ;;; [livejournal.com profile] postingwhore kindly nudged me to remind me that I haven't posted in over three weeks. I want to post more regularly, but I keep getting distracted by other things! Also, school is still kicking my ass, big time. If I posted more regularly, I suspect my entries would be filled with things like: "And today, I tried reading fifty million articles and write up a paper in one go and I realized that it was a Very Bad Idea."

I did my Presentation of Doom back in April and I thought that was going to be the major hurdle. It was a pretty massive hurdle, but now I'm inundated with all the work I've neglected and I have supervisors and collaborators emailing me with stuff like, "Where is the data/write-up/analysis/study design" and I'm all, "D: D: D: *hides and procrastinates more*" My way of dealing with stress is to read fic and let me tell you, that is a terrible coping method.

2. MEME!

1) Comment to this and (if you want) I will give you 3 (fictional) people.
2) Post this meme to your LJ with your answers.
3) Provide pictures/text descriptions and the names of the 3 people.
4) Label whom you would shag, marry and (push off a) cliff.


[livejournal.com profile] postingwhore gave me: Dean Winchester (SPN), John Sheppard (SGA), Atobe Keigo (PoT)

These were tough choices! But it did give me an excuse to go through my SPN/SGA/PoT picture folders and ogle at all the pretty. I also realized that I have very few pictures of Dean (if Jensen were on this list instead of Dean, I suspect my answers to this meme may be very different...).

...and onwards! )

3. The keynote speaker at last week's conference talked about some really interesting research about the psychology of scarcity and how people can be "money poor" or "time poor". ... )

4. The topic of marriage comes up more frequently now that I'm often with people who are several years older than me. One of the fifth year students expressed her surprise when I told her than I'm not particularly invested in the idea of marriage for myself. ... )

5. So, despite my antisocial mannerisms, I had a lovely, brisk walk with [livejournal.com profile] cantarina1 around the neighbourhood. That was a particularly efficient and healthy way of "hanging out" (as opposed to huddling together in front of a computer screen, as we often do ;)). If we make this a regular thing, perhaps I'll be able to shed a layer of padding around my middle that I've picked up during my semester of thinking-about-going-to-the-gym-but-never-actually-going.

6. Now for something completely different: so, the other day, I came across a discussion about the importance of technical quality in stories posted online. Some of the people involved in this discussion were appalled that some readers would completely skip over stories that had grammatical mistakes and other errors. "The authors are writing these stories for fun!" they said. "They're even posting the stories for free, you entitled readers!"

As for myself, I have three general rules that I use to decide whether or not I will read any particular story (I would've sworn I'd written about this at some point in time, but maybe it's one of those in-my-mind!entries that I'd never gotten around to writing out and posting). I developed these three rules-of-thumb back in high school, during my Harry Potter days, when I realized that there was more fic being posted than I had time to read.

cut for length. i haz ~opinions )

Tell me about what makes you click the "back" button!

7. I should post more often so that I don't end up spending 40 minutes trying to write up an LJ post.

8. Is Firefox 4 actually faster or does it just look Chrome-like, with no actual redeeming qualities?

eta: Adding more Lj-cuts because long entry is long. ;;;; [/spamming your flists]
fishpatrol: (FOAMING~~)
Too much RL lately, ugh. I probably won't be around much until I finish: 1. grading this batch of midterms (as;dlkfjs;d), 2. reading a bajillion articles, 3. dealing my projects, and 4. writing my grant proposal. \o\

I did a teeny flist trim (the usual reasons: our interests diverged, we've never talked, etc.). Anyone who wants to remove me from their flist, please feel free to do so (no hard feelings, I promise!).

*goes back to grading*
fishpatrol: (FOAMING~~)
Too much RL lately, ugh. I probably won't be around much until I finish: 1. grading this batch of midterms (as;dlkfjs;d), 2. reading a bajillion articles, 3. dealing my projects, and 4. writing my grant proposal. \o\

I did a teeny flist trim (the usual reasons: our interests diverged, we've never talked, etc.). Anyone who wants to remove me from their flist, please feel free to do so (no hard feelings, I promise!).

*goes back to grading*
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So, here's the thing: what does it mean to "be yourself" or to "stay true to yourself"?

I'm working on a project relating to self-concept and negative mood and I think I'm being supraliminally primed to think about the self all the time now (and I also blame my causeless negative mood from this week on supraliminal priming).

Anyway, back on track. The problem with the whole "be yourself" thing is that the self is made of multiple components. In particular, I'm thinking of the self-discrepancy theory, where there is an ideal-self (which consists of your dreams and aspirations), an ought-self (duties, obligations, what others expect of you), and your actual self. I've currently found myself in a bit of a conundrum: my ideal-self and my ought-self agree on the course of action I should take, while my actual self would prefer (based on past experience and general behavioural tendencies) to take an entirely different path.

Sitcoms usually aren't full of life-lessons, but I thought Jeff Winger's line from yesterday's episode of Community -- "Do you try to evolve or do you try to know what you are?" -- was somewhat profound (and highly relevant as he was attempting to make a choice between being someone he aspires to be or being who he actually is -- haha, well, that's an awkwardly phrased sentence. I'm sure you get the gist of it).

In less thinky-thought news:
-I got a haircut (you know who else needs a haircut? Sam Winchester. I hope for the return of floppy bangs in S6!) and new glasses
-I have no idea where May went (what the heck have I been doing for the past few weeks?)
-I really want to take a vacation (and everyone in my program says I should get away while I can!). My ideal vacation would involve a private island --or even a deserted island would do, as long as there's wi-fi-- with Rodney, Rella, and maybe Shel. The Macbook, iPod, and Kindle, respectively. ;)
-I'm half way through Burn Notice (if any of you watch White Collar, Psych, and Burn Notice, you have to watch these crossover ads -- Fiona hiding her weapons from Peter! Neal flirting with Gus! \o/)
-I have the first two episodes of Fringe and Castle downloaded, just waiting to be watched. Oh, TV♥
fishpatrol: (how *you* doin')
So, here's the thing: what does it mean to "be yourself" or to "stay true to yourself"?

I'm working on a project relating to self-concept and negative mood and I think I'm being supraliminally primed to think about the self all the time now (and I also blame my causeless negative mood from this week on supraliminal priming).

Anyway, back on track. The problem with the whole "be yourself" thing is that the self is made of multiple components. In particular, I'm thinking of the self-discrepancy theory, where there is an ideal-self (which consists of your dreams and aspirations), an ought-self (duties, obligations, what others expect of you), and your actual self. I've currently found myself in a bit of a conundrum: my ideal-self and my ought-self agree on the course of action I should take, while my actual self would prefer (based on past experience and general behavioural tendencies) to take an entirely different path.

Sitcoms usually aren't full of life-lessons, but I thought Jeff Winger's line from yesterday's episode of Community -- "Do you try to evolve or do you try to know what you are?" -- was somewhat profound (and highly relevant as he was attempting to make a choice between being someone he aspires to be or being who he actually is -- haha, well, that's an awkwardly phrased sentence. I'm sure you get the gist of it).

In less thinky-thought news:
-I got a haircut (you know who else needs a haircut? Sam Winchester. I hope for the return of floppy bangs in S6!) and new glasses
-I have no idea where May went (what the heck have I been doing for the past few weeks?)
-I really want to take a vacation (and everyone in my program says I should get away while I can!). My ideal vacation would involve a private island --or even a deserted island would do, as long as there's wi-fi-- with Rodney, Rella, and maybe Shel. The Macbook, iPod, and Kindle, respectively. ;)
-I'm half way through Burn Notice (if any of you watch White Collar, Psych, and Burn Notice, you have to watch these crossover ads -- Fiona hiding her weapons from Peter! Neal flirting with Gus! \o/)
-I have the first two episodes of Fringe and Castle downloaded, just waiting to be watched. Oh, TV♥
fishpatrol: (how *you* doin')
1. Upstairs!opera-singer-wannabe? Please stop singing. :( (Or at least have the decency to use a music room that are apparently available in the building?) You sound like a 鬼. D:

2. My bamboos, Bruno and Boots, were teeny when I first bought them. And then they grew a bit. And look at them now! :D

\o/ )

3. This is my lovely cheat sheet that I made for my stats midterm (there's a back side, too). I didn't even get to use half of the stuff I recorded, but that's probably a good thing because I really didn't understand the proofs we did in class.

4. Vid rec! SPN, Wincest, awesome use of show footage, and just kind of breathtakingly beautiful. Also, some of the most gorgeous shots of Dean. *___* Link: here.

5. I'm not much of a fan of Genevieve Cortese's acting, but she's kind of adorable-like in her I-don't-have-a-Twitter vid. Speaking of Genevieve, did she and Jared get married already? I recall a rumour of a February wedding...

6. I'm surprised at how often people confused "loose" for "lose". I just finished reading a Sam/Dean fic that was quite well-written except for the fact that the author didn't seem realize that "lose" (losing, loser) was a word and consistently used "loose" (loosing, looser) instead. My surprise mostly stems from the fact that "lose" (and its variations -- "loser", especially) appears to be the more commonly used word -- and plus, everyone knows how to spell "lost" correctly, right?

7. The Psych-out from 4x14: oh, Lassiter, you are too sexy for your gun. ♥

eta 8. I know I'll forget to mention it when the day comes (because I do every year), but in less than a week, this journal will be three years old. And in less than a month, my old journal (which I do go back periodically to check the flist) will be seven years old. That means I've spent nearly a third of my life in varying states of LJ-addiction. Wow. X3
fishpatrol: (how *you* doin')
1. Upstairs!opera-singer-wannabe? Please stop singing. :( (Or at least have the decency to use a music room that are apparently available in the building?) You sound like a 鬼. D:

2. My bamboos, Bruno and Boots, were teeny when I first bought them. And then they grew a bit. And look at them now! :D

\o/ )

3. This is my lovely cheat sheet that I made for my stats midterm (there's a back side, too). I didn't even get to use half of the stuff I recorded, but that's probably a good thing because I really didn't understand the proofs we did in class.

4. Vid rec! SPN, Wincest, awesome use of show footage, and just kind of breathtakingly beautiful. Also, some of the most gorgeous shots of Dean. *___* Link: here.

5. I'm not much of a fan of Genevieve Cortese's acting, but she's kind of adorable-like in her I-don't-have-a-Twitter vid. Speaking of Genevieve, did she and Jared get married already? I recall a rumour of a February wedding...

6. I'm surprised at how often people confused "loose" for "lose". I just finished reading a Sam/Dean fic that was quite well-written except for the fact that the author didn't seem realize that "lose" (losing, loser) was a word and consistently used "loose" (loosing, looser) instead. My surprise mostly stems from the fact that "lose" (and its variations -- "loser", especially) appears to be the more commonly used word -- and plus, everyone knows how to spell "lost" correctly, right?

7. The Psych-out from 4x14: oh, Lassiter, you are too sexy for your gun. ♥

eta 8. I know I'll forget to mention it when the day comes (because I do every year), but in less than a week, this journal will be three years old. And in less than a month, my old journal (which I do go back periodically to check the flist) will be seven years old. That means I've spent nearly a third of my life in varying states of LJ-addiction. Wow. X3
fishpatrol: (how *you* doin')
1. Ever since W told me how Nyquil knocked her out for sixteen hours straight, I've wanted to try it. Unfortunately, I am not sick enough to warrant the Nyquil treatment nor do I have the time to sleep for sixteen hours.

I sound like a frog and my brain is leaking out through my nose. D:

2. If I'd chosen to go to Queen's, I would be a third way through my degree already. If I'd chosen Waterloo, I would have completed a sixth of my degree. However, as it were, although I've successfully survived (and passed!) one semester, that's only one-fifteenth of the way. :|

3. Today, the new second-year research assistant I was training said that I looked younger than her. In China during the summer, people kept asking me if I'd just graduated high school. In San Diego during the winter break, a prof thought I was in high school. On the plane ride home, the flight attendant asked for my age because only those fifteen and older can sit in an emergency exit row seat. =___=;; I suppose I'll appreciate this when I'm forty.

100. I don't have much to offer for [livejournal.com profile] help_haiti in terms of auctions, so I'll go make some bids tomorrow when I'm more awake (hopefully?). :) (and think carefully about which charity to donate to >__O)

99. Hee, this is amusing. Personally, I quite like Pachelbel Canon -- but then again, I was a first violin. ;)

45434351. All right, all right, no more procrastinating editing. I'm going to bed finish an article.
fishpatrol: (how *you* doin')
1. Ever since W told me how Nyquil knocked her out for sixteen hours straight, I've wanted to try it. Unfortunately, I am not sick enough to warrant the Nyquil treatment nor do I have the time to sleep for sixteen hours.

I sound like a frog and my brain is leaking out through my nose. D:

2. If I'd chosen to go to Queen's, I would be a third way through my degree already. If I'd chosen Waterloo, I would have completed a sixth of my degree. However, as it were, although I've successfully survived (and passed!) one semester, that's only one-fifteenth of the way. :|

3. Today, the new second-year research assistant I was training said that I looked younger than her. In China during the summer, people kept asking me if I'd just graduated high school. In San Diego during the winter break, a prof thought I was in high school. On the plane ride home, the flight attendant asked for my age because only those fifteen and older can sit in an emergency exit row seat. =___=;; I suppose I'll appreciate this when I'm forty.

100. I don't have much to offer for [livejournal.com profile] help_haiti in terms of auctions, so I'll go make some bids tomorrow when I'm more awake (hopefully?). :) (and think carefully about which charity to donate to >__O)

99. Hee, this is amusing. Personally, I quite like Pachelbel Canon -- but then again, I was a first violin. ;)

45434351. All right, all right, no more procrastinating editing. I'm going to bed finish an article.
fishpatrol: (imma gonna eat your spicy brainz)
1. I had my stats midterm this morning. It wasn't as horrible as I'd anticipated, but then again, L and I did spend the past couple of evenings gorging on sour gummies I keep in my office (they don't taste that great, but hey, sugar is sugar) and going through all of the past tests. Even though I spent more time staring blankly at the questions and whining, something must've made it into my head. ;;; The past few days was very similar to the days preceding the computer programming exam last year, where L and I flailed and were all "Of course I'm right WHY DO YOU NOT TRUST MY JUDGMENT" at each other.

1.5 I'm glad there aren't any midterms for my "real" grad classes, but I have a couple of research proposals coming up and my mind is drawing a big, huge BLANK.

2. Autumn is my favourite season, but man, I don't remember there being so many ladybugs around in past years. I remember liking them when I was little, but one day, a switch flipped in my brain and now I'm terrified of them. I was flailing (think windmilling arms) like a crazy person in the middle of the street, trying to avoid them. Ugh, bugphobia.

3. I find the hard drive of my Macbook to be really noisy even though I'd already had it changed once. I had a bit of spare time today before I had to catch my train, so I walked all the way to the Apple store (half an hour), waited around even though I had an appointment (fifteen minutes), had an Apple Genius take my Mac to the back room (ten minutes), returned the Mac to me saying that he couldn't hear a thing and refused to change my hard drive, thus leaving me to drag it back to res (half an hour). On the plus side, at least I got some exercise?
I'm pretty sensitive to noise, so it could be just me -- or maybe the Apple Genius was hard of hearing. >__O Either way, the hard drive noise is irritating and ugh, idk.

4. I let my dad have first dibs on my Kindle because he drove out and picked it up for me (also, I didn't want the additional distraction before my midterm ;)). My Kindle is significantly grubbier than when I received it, two weeks ago. I should've put it in a Ziploc bag before loaning it to my dad. ;) But hurrah, a new toy to play with ♥

5. Since I'm all caught up on Leverage, Psych is on hiatus, and Supernatural is going on hiatus soon, I'm thinking of taking [livejournal.com profile] akeyoftime's advice and trying out Dark Angel. Can't go wrong with young!Jensen and sci-fi, yeah? I watched Young MacGuyver and hee, young!Jared is so very adorable. But back to Jensen -- I have My Bloody Valentine on my iPod and I've been slowly watching it in increments. Watching it in 3D would be neat, but I think the "Omg ugh" factor would win out the "Omg, Jensen in 3D", haha. ;;;

5.5 And now I'm going to go curl up in bed and watch yesterday's episode of Glee.
fishpatrol: (imma gonna eat your spicy brainz)
1. I had my stats midterm this morning. It wasn't as horrible as I'd anticipated, but then again, L and I did spend the past couple of evenings gorging on sour gummies I keep in my office (they don't taste that great, but hey, sugar is sugar) and going through all of the past tests. Even though I spent more time staring blankly at the questions and whining, something must've made it into my head. ;;; The past few days was very similar to the days preceding the computer programming exam last year, where L and I flailed and were all "Of course I'm right WHY DO YOU NOT TRUST MY JUDGMENT" at each other.

1.5 I'm glad there aren't any midterms for my "real" grad classes, but I have a couple of research proposals coming up and my mind is drawing a big, huge BLANK.

2. Autumn is my favourite season, but man, I don't remember there being so many ladybugs around in past years. I remember liking them when I was little, but one day, a switch flipped in my brain and now I'm terrified of them. I was flailing (think windmilling arms) like a crazy person in the middle of the street, trying to avoid them. Ugh, bugphobia.

3. I find the hard drive of my Macbook to be really noisy even though I'd already had it changed once. I had a bit of spare time today before I had to catch my train, so I walked all the way to the Apple store (half an hour), waited around even though I had an appointment (fifteen minutes), had an Apple Genius take my Mac to the back room (ten minutes), returned the Mac to me saying that he couldn't hear a thing and refused to change my hard drive, thus leaving me to drag it back to res (half an hour). On the plus side, at least I got some exercise?
I'm pretty sensitive to noise, so it could be just me -- or maybe the Apple Genius was hard of hearing. >__O Either way, the hard drive noise is irritating and ugh, idk.

4. I let my dad have first dibs on my Kindle because he drove out and picked it up for me (also, I didn't want the additional distraction before my midterm ;)). My Kindle is significantly grubbier than when I received it, two weeks ago. I should've put it in a Ziploc bag before loaning it to my dad. ;) But hurrah, a new toy to play with ♥

5. Since I'm all caught up on Leverage, Psych is on hiatus, and Supernatural is going on hiatus soon, I'm thinking of taking [livejournal.com profile] akeyoftime's advice and trying out Dark Angel. Can't go wrong with young!Jensen and sci-fi, yeah? I watched Young MacGuyver and hee, young!Jared is so very adorable. But back to Jensen -- I have My Bloody Valentine on my iPod and I've been slowly watching it in increments. Watching it in 3D would be neat, but I think the "Omg ugh" factor would win out the "Omg, Jensen in 3D", haha. ;;;

5.5 And now I'm going to go curl up in bed and watch yesterday's episode of Glee.
fishpatrol: (FOAMING~~)
I've been stuck in my office for the past hour, trying to run some basic SAS code and I keep getting error warnings. I don't understand what I'm doing wrong! It's like the Python nightmare all over again. :|

I pretty much look like my icon right now. \o\
fishpatrol: (FOAMING~~)
I've been stuck in my office for the past hour, trying to run some basic SAS code and I keep getting error warnings. I don't understand what I'm doing wrong! It's like the Python nightmare all over again. :|

I pretty much look like my icon right now. \o\

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